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10:24 p.m. - 2006-06-22
I'm such a fucking freak.
I'm nauseous. Then blah. Then nauseous.

I bought the car today.

The car payments are slightly more than my rent.

I'm committed for 5 years.

My vagabond way of life is going extinct. Because I am now financially tied to a bank. And although I am also tied to credit card banks, this seems more real. I guess because something could be taken away if I blow it.

I can't just run off and live on a cruise ship now. That makes me sad.

I keep wondering if I did the right thing.

Is this in any possible way normal? Is this what other people feel when they buy a car, or a house?

God I wish I weren't alone right now. I want to be panicking with someone.

I'm sure I'll feel much better about this in the morning.

Or maybe not.

I miss my freedom.


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