4:15 p.m. - 2005-09-14
I have been challenged to find a soothing surrogate for my bad behaviors that will not do harm, but will fulfull the need to overdo things.
The problem is, the only ones I can think of like exercise and meditation can't be done while at work, and can't be done easily when I'm in The City on the weekends.
I wish I had a hobby to obsess over. I need to obsess. But I need to do it in a healthy way.
This journal doesn't do it for me. If anything, writing here stirs things up, rather than soothing anything. Which has its place. But it won't be my refuge from self-inflicted hurt.
I need ideas people. I'm totally at a loss. Probably because I don't really want to change the behaviors in some perverse way. But if I had an idea to start with, I could at least practice with it and see if it heads off any behavior issues.
Feel free to leave me notes full of suggestions.