7:25 p.m. - 2005-06-05
The entire experience last night was just weird. I talked in legnth to the nice brother of the bartender who is a bit on the slow side. But so, so sweet.
Then H swaggered in for a drinkie, and proceeded to insult me. Apparently, my demands for regular sex are a bit too girlfriendish, and remind him too much of his ex girlfriend T, and is just too much for him to bear. He wants to have sex several tiems a year, instead of several times a month.
6 years after the bloody split with the wife, and the bitterness is still eating him alive. For god's sake, if I'm too demanding, and I only want some fairly regular booty.
He is stewing in anger and apparently enjoys it that way. But, I was hurt, and offended and so disappointed. I cried like a little baby, because I was rejected by someone I consider a close friend. He told me that I am less than what I am by comparing me to another human being. I am unique and if he can't appreciate that, he needs to go fuck himself.
It sucks. It all sucks.
But, he is just not worth it. Is he?